| | Well now, it's been a while hasn't it? I guess I don't write much at all anymore. I ceased writing poetry along with my blog here. And for the longest time, all I wanted to do was write, write and write. So what to say? I've been under some deep depression since last december and it's really affected me to a great degree. I've been on the upswing a bit lately, but all it takes is some crummy weather and/or some sort of trial, great or small, that I don't seem to be able to deal with at all, and wham, I'm down.
On the spiritual side, I've described myself as the church of Ephesus... but I think there is more to it than that. I don't seem to be able to keep from my "pet" sins which just keep me in this constant state of down... spiritually that is.
Apathy seems to rule the day in my life and I seem to be in a constant state of defeat. I know part of the problem, but it goes back to the apathy thing, being completely disengaged from everything going on around me. I know it's affecting my wife and kids and me and everything in and around me... and I'm overcome by it all, and the only way I deal with it is to disengage more.
It seems a vicious cycle that I can't get out of and I hate it all.
I would appreciate your prayers for my family, specifically my wife, for they are the ones that are suffering the most. |
| | Posted 3/26/2008 11:47 PM - 181 Views - 8 eProps - 8 comments
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